it's beating.

Sunday, peaceful yet annoying.

Attachment have been keeping my fingers off from everything.

Research research, and followed by research.

after everyday,back from cdc.

Long travel distance. And the having the feel of clinical instructor is always

behind my back, observing everysingle of my actions,

It's definitely not a good sign, or rather, the worst is coming.

Oh alibaba, just allow me go through it without much hassles will you? for

onemoreweek, puh-lease? fingerscrossed.

"call-bell = peep-peep"

how cute.

meeting with comm and bros have been fun! I mean it.

Tomorrow, 9am. shucks.

1. Bangkok's is currently under riots and ppl are protesting. How.
2. A discount of my weight during holiday. Something greater than GSS.
3. Justbehappyandkeepthatsmile, you.Always, please.
4. Shall spend more time with grandpa.
5. And lastly, I can't afford to fail. (:

Anxious.

Sunday, moon & stars?

As usual, before any attachment, I would put up a new post.

Just to calm myself down I guess?

Don't ask me why am I having severe anxiety too.

Hate it. It would be cdc next.

Worrying about being late, long distance, dragging myself out of bed, scoldings and so on.

oh well, it's life, isn't it?
Face it with a big smiley face, as wide as Joker's.

:D:

huh? two-faced in the end.

Ha-ha.

Shouldn't have stayed at home today.

Should have run around outside.

Get exhausted and head to sleep straight away.

Enough complaining.

what have I done today.

A couch potato,

A 100 pound bigfatpig which has limited Range Of Motion

Shake off some fats,

and picked up photo editing skill as a hobby, well, a temporary pass-time-hobby.

lastly, deep thoughts.

qwuahqwuahqwuah.

anyhoo, all the best and good luck dihao, a big kiss on the forehead !

and below is the picture I spent 30mins doing. what to do. I'm new.

p.s: thankyou master maria for introducing it. :D

Learnt something meaningful and edited one for friend !

Time to sleep.

Don't miss me.

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I know you will,people !

'just press publish post and stop talking nonsense.'

The 1st and there are more to comecomecome!

Falling Deeper Every Single Day.

Sunday, Midnight. Windy.

crawl out from bed at 10am. Early though.

due to the appearance of Axel, baby nephew.

He shouted loudly, ''uncle! wake up,play with me.'' of course, his pronounciation was bad, but cute. ;)

p.s. the word ''uncle''. Am I that old? I would like to be matured though.haha! taught him

whenever he sees me, ''kor-kor'' should be the words. Not uncle. but, unfortunately, I failed.

He remained the same. unclehereunclethere.

So, babysitted him for about 5 hours before going out for shoppingshopping

Axel fed me this vegetarian noodles. woolala!

cause I told him, uncle old already,no strength to eat. :D smartrightsmartright.

Tadah ! this is Axel, for your information. Ain't he simply adorable.

He's smart. Indeed. And I'm the patient of the day, as he's the doctor. He actually

appointed the roles. Aww. cutecute x2.

Am I a joker or joker ? get it get it? haha. answeranswer.

So, finally, chosen 'The Flash' and bought it, instead of joker. Quite fitting and it's blue !

seriousy desperate for retail therapy. don't ask me why too. :)

and it's getting late now,resting soon, bye world. Adios.

Visual Hallucinations.

1. Niang bought this for me to ensure I'm not dehydrated. '8 cups per day'

2. to increase the value of the vehicle ?

3. start fasting or exercise daily so that to avoid this. Reminder.

4. Somehow, I starting to miss all the crazy laughters.haha.

5. I dreamt about my toys yesterday night !

So there goes IMH. and hello CDC ! 'urgh'

And I'm not willing to go, rather, I refused?

Have to wake up at 4a.m. For the first time, I hate living in pasir ris.

Not bad. At least I get to accompany the bus driver throughout nearly 40 busstops.

Whoever he is, bus driver will be my best friend for 2 weeks.

And lastly, I missed playing poker cards with them in IMH.

''get the bond at IMH lah''

doink.

stomping hard.

[a great contrast of the world]

Tuesday, rainy. Was slacking in my warm nest, checking the time every 5mins, make sure I won't be late for attachment. Miracle. I dragged my self up only at 6am, thinking that attachment starts at eight. ohwell, despite the fact that I'm freaking late, I still stoned happily, thinking that " Why don't I just call the ward and say that I will only go for afternoon shift? yay! yeeha. " straight after that, the little tiny angle with a halo, says that I should try my best to reach, and worst come to worst, don't bath luh. So, in the end, i didn't bath at all. Haha. ''eeeee''

Anyway, I still reached ward on time. And, the patients are simply cute. Skipped the details, and today finally a big step forward in knowing about the patients, when I decide to try to interact with them. Fear thrown down the drain. End of the day, I realised that, despite of their imperfections, they became more adorable, and innocent. As in pure and simple minded in a good way. Everything's straightforward for them. simple&beautiful. and questionmarkquestionmark. why do people tend to become truly a simple and nice person, only after some incidents happened on them. Maybe, it's the ugly side of human's behaviour and thoughts, that controlling the minds, affecting people's interactions with others. Lies being told, greedy, evil of the evil-est.

On the way back home, I was thinking about something that I observed in the ward. Although they might seem to be happy in the surface, but, they're actually feeling very helpless, isolated, and lonely. Through the calls they made to the outer world, through conversations with them, somehow, I could really feel them. Deep down, their loneliness. Being abandoned by the loved ones, begging them to bring them out, being trapped in a steel cage, I believe it will only worsen the condition. I never felt this much in any attachments I before. But, there's always a brighter world awaiting further ahead. When I walking towards the busstop, looked up, I saw an AhBeng-like guy, with cigarettes in his hand, walking towards me. I chose not to look at him, as he looks quite aggresive, with tattoos on his both arms. "Hello, staff, good afternoon." It was said by him, in a respectful manner. I was stunned at that moment. I'm sure he's a gangmember. After a few more steps, I look back, and he's heading towards the institution. Not on purpose, I smiled, unintentionally. He's the reason of this whole post. Flight of thoughts in my mind, further clarification of, how a person's behaviour changed so dramatically, only after some traumas or inevitable hellish accidents that happened on them. People do change to a better person, only by this kind of pathway? I won't hope so.

a squat that ruined it.

Major events in my life for the past 2 weeks:

1. Exam Over. But, kind of screwed it.

2. Attachment coming. Damn it.

3. Accident in Sentosa. Rest In Peace, you were once my favorite. [_/\_]

'Outing with the beloveds and watching horror movie are full of laughters and excitements, of course, no forgetting [_/\_] ' "supersad."

Cute.

I'm there for you 24/7. haha.

Two extras who like to interrupt my beautiful personal photo. giggles. ' Ceh, I also got.' Nice one fiz, :D we, detest the intruders disturbing our photoshoot. Disturbed my photo 'one more time' ! dihao : I really can't stand the intruders! ^^
(Ning hm-hm-ing.)(Ling: nowadays the teenagers always misbehaved !)(dihao: giggles)
The Intruder in my photo again. This is what I best in ! Ey? Who's camera was that. Technical problem in the center. Forgive me people. Despite of my frequent irritating actions, I do love all of you, deep down from my heart. 8D

ex-am !

Exam is just around the corner. turnleft turnright, ta-dah, u will reach the corner . pretty fast aye? haha. just a lame one. work hard people, and dihao too. running off to study ! =)