Life's Changing.

Wedsneshday, MidNight, hot&humid.

Trying hard to pick up myself from being lazy, and abandon the days of being a couch potato 24/7, and trying hard not to get scolded by aunt, to keep the mattress the moment I opened my eyes in the morning. But, apparently, I only sleep when it's already morning? 5am to 6? guh. Will heed the advice, no doubt about it, have to!

Yesterday-yesterday, had a mass meeting. After that, hanged out with the beloveds, at town.

Caught up with each other, it feel like ages since we last met. Had twilight @ Cine, and it's the second time for some of us, aiyo, Edward-something's so hot, is the reason.

"My hair resembles his." poke my waist.

And, the usual updating each other, gossiping, dinner at Cahaya, searching for XL where obama feels inferior, u think I don't ah! haha. just hilarious with them around. All laughed at me somemore.

Here's the story:

Aunty @ FarEast Cahaya Restaurant came to me while we prepared to order our meals.

Aunty: No hot drinks ya boy.

Me: Teh Ais.

Aunty: No more hot drinks.

Me: Ya, I want Teh Ais.

Figure out what's wrong with it? If u didn't, we're the same species, and Big High-5 !

Oh, for a moment, I wondering why the heow there's no hot water in the kitchen of Cahaya, or they just simply lazy to make the drinks. =S Anyway, the food's not that, good.

Today, or rather, the day before, another outing with fy, xl and hz.

Browhaus[lols]-shopping around central area-Mission: Mphosis Vest [S]-Fish & Co.-

-Mission: Mphosis Vest[S] Part 2 - West Area- Tampines Ajisen.

It has been fun, of course, with friend that I seldom talk to in school, as in never really get a chance to, she's veryvery friendly by the way, and apologies to everyone if I'm being too quiet as I'm always out of topics to start a conversation.haha. Saw ""Useful"", with Lynn, @ citylink, and she's still as blur as ever. lols.

Food, food, food. okay, I declare that, It's my first time in Fish&Co, yeah I know, maybe, because I'm not local and pretty of a caveman? Pretty good excuse. Anyhoo, the food's not bad, baked salmon, shall try swordfish collar next time, as recommended, and hopefully seafood platter nextnext time ! And girls, stop eating salads and vegies, pamper yourself with great food and only think of what to do, IF you gain-ED weight. haha. It's quite torturing, to look at both of you being a vegetarians, while the two man-eaters in front, munching nonstop.

'Eat Before You Die, Just Do It, Life's Good'

'Eat olzo die, dun eat olzo die, might as well eat epily'

My Theory , that's why my bmi getting higher. Bahbahbah.

Ohya, fy being approach by a so-called, model-hunter, those from modelling company, hunting for potential models, on the street ! From head to toe, hm, ya, you got the potential lah, fingercrossed. haha. and stop the sudden ambush you self-proclaimed Ong Bak, The hulk [tear the shirt upon flexing muscles] , before I bash you up with wing-chun.

And, a big raa-raa, i couldn't really recognise you when you walk towards me. I immediately put my head down pretending I never see you, as i thought u're a stranger. As in seriously, though I'm a big fat liar, -.-, but from all the attentions u're getting, u're improving! keep it up felicia kong. (: [see, u're featured in my blog, so be honoured and happy about it, and glad to see you after all the improved changes, urm, maybe not so, due to the state of the aftermath disaster of the foreign object to you, 'The Heels'. uhhlala.

Now, shall get some sleep, and today's new year eve.

Enjoy yourself to the fullest, and let's welcome two-doubledonuts-nine together with a big smile on the face, you cool pricks ! (: Hope it would be a great and memorable day for you. Cheers.

Here's the overdue photos taken back home, urr, hometown :

Opposite my house, and it's really a jungle-liked mountain. I'm not lying.

Left: Mountain
Right: My home
Man, I missed the days years back, when we built our own hideouts up the mountain and spent great times there, and all the scoldings for being overstayed on the mountain, I missed everything, brothers.


This is it.

Shall end it with Fried kway teow. Shall not elaborate more.

Eh you, your saliva, ain't you drooling?

Responsibility.

Wedsnesday, Rainy.

Back From Malaysia.

A fruitful trip. Enjoyed for the few days over there.

Meet Up with Old friends, and I meant, good, olden days buddies.

Updating each other of what you're doing, and plans for the future.

Glad that some of them are moving up, have a clearer idea of the next big step.

Food is still marvelous down there, and had some nutritious meals prepared by mum.

Photos will be up soon, as I can't get the bloody pictures up the net. Don't know why too.

Christmas eve, time to go out, and hope to have a unforgettable christmas eve, an unusual and memorable ones. Cheers. (:

A real, home sweet home.

Wedsnesday, Midnight, Windy.

Going back in 5 hours time. Mixed feelings I would say.

Waited so long for this moment to come, to visit my family, yet, now feeling abit reluctant.

Well, let's see how it goes when I'm back there. Hope it will be a brand new chapter.

Done with quite, a lot to be exact, shoppings.

2 jeans, 1 tank top, and a pair of shoes.

As there's christmas sale all around !

cant stop cant stop.

Shopped for early new year clothes too, as part of the excuse for spending money.haha.

Attachment's over, it has been a few days.

Quite fruitful.

Yet will be missing the great time I had there with my friens and the staffs.

For those who having attachment, best wishes.

Christmas wish or CNY wish : change the bushy-hairstyle on my head. And cut down on number appeared on weighing scale. but i just cant stop eatingand eating.sleepsleepsleep.

recently, really wanted to find an understanding hairstylist, as in he must know the natural attribute of my hair(curly and messy).

Been to quite a few salons, and all failed.

They didn't realise that once I perspire like madman, my hair will totally go flat, and whatever style would be gone. Probably will rebond fringe, or dye it? who knows what will come. idea please.

People do change, from bad to good, viceversa.

People do change, from ugly to pretty and handsome.

People do change, from wearing bermudas all the time, to just a few attempts in wearing dresses?

anyway, a good change I would say. (:

stop and stare ~

I feel like this now!

Rabbit Without Ears. woah.

Sunday, 11:45, Windy.

A day out with xiulai and mr.sawathikap.

Met aunty, and the daughter told her about the tarts and watch.

Cold-sweat. Seriously. Don't know how to react and reply.

Just silly smiles. haha.

Went for a movie, which xl is very excited about. Luckily not alone with mr.sawathikap,to zoo.

The outcome, mr.s getting excited and becomes a rabbit without brain, er, with extra uprised of hormone.

It was good, the movie. Silly yet entertaining. 'Bolt' next up hopefully.

mr.s keep complaining about I never ask him out. blardy hell.

Wong Kok hongkong cafe for dinner. Baked cheese seafood fried rice, and a glass of, urm, hongkong style milktea, in a bowl filled with ice. This should be the actual name in the menu if I'm the boss.

More realistic. Rather than those fancy names. That certainly gives false hope.haha.

On the train, mr.s gets excited again. shakes head lah.

On the journey home, talked with him about what to do after diploma.

Well, no idea yet.

Shall not think so much, and just do it.

step by step.

We Fish The Fakeshit. Subcrew. Brand new.

Again and again

Sunday, 8.44p.m, silent night.

Hm. Attachment going to start in few hours time.

Another long distance travel, for. 9 days I think.

Not really familiar with this term's skills. Nevertheless, will keep up with the pace.

Hope it will be a smooth one.

Mum went back. Everything back to normal.

Life? Full and packed. Hardly have any spare time for her.

Will make up for it, when I'm home. Promise. (:

Ohya, sakae with clique. Was a good one. Though the chawanmushi tasted like, fishsmell.

Well, enjoyed it, at least.

Saturday afternoon, spent with family, buffet at Intercontinental Hotel, Singapore.

It was great and filling. Wide variety of desserts, which I too busy eating,totally forgot to snap any pictures of them. and tons of yummy food.

Chinese, Thai Style, Nyonya, Western, you name it.

Met cousins over there. Which i hardly got a chance to meet them.haha.

Been busy with own stuff.

She's attached and same age as me somemore.

I'm a monk, but not bald and vegetarian. Mind you.hahaha.
hope to receive a significant other-half, for christmas. Wrapped in box or stuff into my socks.

Sunday, the usual anxiety comes back. I wasn't prepared at all. For tomorrow.
Go easy on me please, I hope? ohya, forgot to charge PDA.

what plant pineapple tree. lol.

ohshiesh. Remember something.

This is really my mummy.biological mummy.added me in msn.I laugh till peng!

ultra-belated birthday + early christmas gift for dumbass. thankyou for everything.coughcough.

SOLD.

Last Teen Of Mickey Meow.

Sunday, 12.30pm, sunny day.

urm, nearly 2 weeks after birthday.

Been looking for spare time to update my blog.

So. after 'afew' days, here I am.

As you know( youknowyouknowlah), I'm not really good in expressing my feelings,

Er. This year's birthday, I realised that I do have a wider circle of friends,

that willing to plan & buy me presents,

willing to take note of what I liked, and willing to wrap them up for me.

All the suprises, laughters, although I behaved like a jerk normally, and tried to actsmart actsmart,

pretend to see through all the suprises, urm. HAHAHA.

But still, *palm on the left chest*, I really do appreciate whatever u all have done for me.

Eh. Those smaller font words always represent my true feeling okay. Erkhem.

To conclude it, thankyou for all the birthday and birtday cards, I love you all, and will remember every moment that we shared.

clapclapclap.

I Cried When I Taking This Photo.

Out of so many pictures, I bet this is what you wished to see right. (:

Next.

smell it smell it.

Got it. yee-haa.

self-reflection.

Monday. 12.19am.

Just came back from movie at marina square.

High School Musical.

[pris: psssttttt!]
full name? zac efron.hahaha.

just some random stuff, no worries, u're not weird or outcast if u don't understand.haha.

wellwellwell, time to dig out my blog deep down from the graveyard yo.

Been telling and motivating myself to blog, but everytime look at the blank sheet on the screeen, it turns me off.

Bah.

okayokayokay.what I did in the past few weeks.
school,delegates,project,movies,surfing net.

this pretty much sums it up.

first thing, feel kind of powerless in doing everything.
and not sure where should I start anything from.

where's the starting point.

everything is so messed up.

or because I'm lacked of the qualities I guess.

nevertheless, promise to give it my best shot.

lately, have been really obsessed into mesh caps.ho-ho.

In case you didn't know, or I kept my secret too well [ceh],
I once had a fetish in collecting cap, though I seldom wear them,
unless my hair being messed up. Just like few weeks ago.
toobad. no picture for it. It looks something like a person undergo chemotherapy.
quoted from some friends.haha.
now my hair's back yo.
well, next cap in the list. taa-daa.

I know I know.the colour is abit off, or rather, bright & light.

well, at least it adds up to my 'dope collection'.

Saturday went to 'what's good' store at the cathay,

and saw this.

Wanted to buy the blackgold colour 'dope', but it's just for display.

aww.

saw this colour instead. in term of colour combination, nth much to say.doink.

gave up the thought of getting this cap, as the colour's too loud for me.

but now,on second thought,why not buy it and keep it?

it's my long-lost hobby what.what to do.lol.

furthermore,the store having 30% everything! $89 original price..

minus off the disc.,would be just about $60+.

moreover, there's only 100 pieces worldwide.

A big 'why not'.

gonna get it soon. when I feel like it or I dream about it in the middle of the night.haha.

alrightos, enough sharing about my lil' secret.

and time for a big thankyou for the fossil.

truly appreciate it.

truly touched.

number1 number1.hahaha.

will keep the promise made. (:

and just wait for the lil' suprise.

so troublesome lah u.what also dont want. -.-'

lastly, most probably, hello india and posted to ttsh.

we can do it people, as long as we stay as a team. or rather, u're more than a team to me.

and please do correct me, if i made any silly mistake. Feel free & please do so.

haha.recently getting more&more emotional.

lack of sleep I guess.

nevertheless,don't give up and keep marching forward.

bye.

ouh, shall ends it off with this. Enjoy & laugh your ass off evil people. (:

[the parents smoked weed while naming him.poor guy.Ruined life]p/s: it's all about interpersonal communication skills.

two point one.

Sunday, Hot and Humid.

Well, holiday's ending.

Did nothing much during holiday, mostly play, and play.

Obviously, with tons of sleep too.

Lots of outings.

Closer bonds with wonderful people around me.

Firstly, Chalet with the girls.

haha. Reminds me of all the crazy moments.

All picked one of the poker cards, smallest run out and stay in the rain for 10 seconds.

Thankyou for all the fun and laughters ! (:

Second, Chalet with fellow delegates.

Hm. Done with lots of chattings, and thoughts which I not sure how to describe here.

overall, a big thankyou for people who turned up for it ! and of course, those who spent effort to make it happened! you know who you are. (:

Thirdly, yijun is currently warded. Recover soon aye? We seriously miss you so much and your laughters.

A wonderful visit to yj house, night cycling to ECP, jurongeast swimming complex outing, and shoppings & movies, etc etc.

Lastly, Raya visiting with closeclose friends ! A huge terima kasih to abu, aifah and nurul. Not forgetting their extremely friendly families. hafiz: ''why your houses so nice?'' Giggles.haha.

ouh. and yishun birds are scarier than I thought.

p.s: I love and treasure all of you aye! BIGSMILE. (:

[peektures will be up once I got all of them! ]

it's beating.

Sunday, peaceful yet annoying.

Attachment have been keeping my fingers off from everything.

Research research, and followed by research.

after everyday,back from cdc.

Long travel distance. And the having the feel of clinical instructor is always

behind my back, observing everysingle of my actions,

It's definitely not a good sign, or rather, the worst is coming.

Oh alibaba, just allow me go through it without much hassles will you? for

onemoreweek, puh-lease? fingerscrossed.

"call-bell = peep-peep"

how cute.

meeting with comm and bros have been fun! I mean it.

Tomorrow, 9am. shucks.

1. Bangkok's is currently under riots and ppl are protesting. How.
2. A discount of my weight during holiday. Something greater than GSS.
3. Justbehappyandkeepthatsmile, you.Always, please.
4. Shall spend more time with grandpa.
5. And lastly, I can't afford to fail. (:

Anxious.

Sunday, moon & stars?

As usual, before any attachment, I would put up a new post.

Just to calm myself down I guess?

Don't ask me why am I having severe anxiety too.

Hate it. It would be cdc next.

Worrying about being late, long distance, dragging myself out of bed, scoldings and so on.

oh well, it's life, isn't it?
Face it with a big smiley face, as wide as Joker's.

:D:

huh? two-faced in the end.

Ha-ha.

Shouldn't have stayed at home today.

Should have run around outside.

Get exhausted and head to sleep straight away.

Enough complaining.

what have I done today.

A couch potato,

A 100 pound bigfatpig which has limited Range Of Motion

Shake off some fats,

and picked up photo editing skill as a hobby, well, a temporary pass-time-hobby.

lastly, deep thoughts.

qwuahqwuahqwuah.

anyhoo, all the best and good luck dihao, a big kiss on the forehead !

and below is the picture I spent 30mins doing. what to do. I'm new.

p.s: thankyou master maria for introducing it. :D

Learnt something meaningful and edited one for friend !

Time to sleep.

Don't miss me.

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.

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I know you will,people !

'just press publish post and stop talking nonsense.'

The 1st and there are more to comecomecome!

Falling Deeper Every Single Day.

Sunday, Midnight. Windy.

crawl out from bed at 10am. Early though.

due to the appearance of Axel, baby nephew.

He shouted loudly, ''uncle! wake up,play with me.'' of course, his pronounciation was bad, but cute. ;)

p.s. the word ''uncle''. Am I that old? I would like to be matured though.haha! taught him

whenever he sees me, ''kor-kor'' should be the words. Not uncle. but, unfortunately, I failed.

He remained the same. unclehereunclethere.

So, babysitted him for about 5 hours before going out for shoppingshopping

Axel fed me this vegetarian noodles. woolala!

cause I told him, uncle old already,no strength to eat. :D smartrightsmartright.

Tadah ! this is Axel, for your information. Ain't he simply adorable.

He's smart. Indeed. And I'm the patient of the day, as he's the doctor. He actually

appointed the roles. Aww. cutecute x2.

Am I a joker or joker ? get it get it? haha. answeranswer.

So, finally, chosen 'The Flash' and bought it, instead of joker. Quite fitting and it's blue !

seriousy desperate for retail therapy. don't ask me why too. :)

and it's getting late now,resting soon, bye world. Adios.

Visual Hallucinations.

1. Niang bought this for me to ensure I'm not dehydrated. '8 cups per day'

2. to increase the value of the vehicle ?

3. start fasting or exercise daily so that to avoid this. Reminder.

4. Somehow, I starting to miss all the crazy laughters.haha.

5. I dreamt about my toys yesterday night !

So there goes IMH. and hello CDC ! 'urgh'

And I'm not willing to go, rather, I refused?

Have to wake up at 4a.m. For the first time, I hate living in pasir ris.

Not bad. At least I get to accompany the bus driver throughout nearly 40 busstops.

Whoever he is, bus driver will be my best friend for 2 weeks.

And lastly, I missed playing poker cards with them in IMH.

''get the bond at IMH lah''

doink.

stomping hard.

[a great contrast of the world]

Tuesday, rainy. Was slacking in my warm nest, checking the time every 5mins, make sure I won't be late for attachment. Miracle. I dragged my self up only at 6am, thinking that attachment starts at eight. ohwell, despite the fact that I'm freaking late, I still stoned happily, thinking that " Why don't I just call the ward and say that I will only go for afternoon shift? yay! yeeha. " straight after that, the little tiny angle with a halo, says that I should try my best to reach, and worst come to worst, don't bath luh. So, in the end, i didn't bath at all. Haha. ''eeeee''

Anyway, I still reached ward on time. And, the patients are simply cute. Skipped the details, and today finally a big step forward in knowing about the patients, when I decide to try to interact with them. Fear thrown down the drain. End of the day, I realised that, despite of their imperfections, they became more adorable, and innocent. As in pure and simple minded in a good way. Everything's straightforward for them. simple&beautiful. and questionmarkquestionmark. why do people tend to become truly a simple and nice person, only after some incidents happened on them. Maybe, it's the ugly side of human's behaviour and thoughts, that controlling the minds, affecting people's interactions with others. Lies being told, greedy, evil of the evil-est.

On the way back home, I was thinking about something that I observed in the ward. Although they might seem to be happy in the surface, but, they're actually feeling very helpless, isolated, and lonely. Through the calls they made to the outer world, through conversations with them, somehow, I could really feel them. Deep down, their loneliness. Being abandoned by the loved ones, begging them to bring them out, being trapped in a steel cage, I believe it will only worsen the condition. I never felt this much in any attachments I before. But, there's always a brighter world awaiting further ahead. When I walking towards the busstop, looked up, I saw an AhBeng-like guy, with cigarettes in his hand, walking towards me. I chose not to look at him, as he looks quite aggresive, with tattoos on his both arms. "Hello, staff, good afternoon." It was said by him, in a respectful manner. I was stunned at that moment. I'm sure he's a gangmember. After a few more steps, I look back, and he's heading towards the institution. Not on purpose, I smiled, unintentionally. He's the reason of this whole post. Flight of thoughts in my mind, further clarification of, how a person's behaviour changed so dramatically, only after some traumas or inevitable hellish accidents that happened on them. People do change to a better person, only by this kind of pathway? I won't hope so.

a squat that ruined it.

Major events in my life for the past 2 weeks:

1. Exam Over. But, kind of screwed it.

2. Attachment coming. Damn it.

3. Accident in Sentosa. Rest In Peace, you were once my favorite. [_/\_]

'Outing with the beloveds and watching horror movie are full of laughters and excitements, of course, no forgetting [_/\_] ' "supersad."

Cute.

I'm there for you 24/7. haha.

Two extras who like to interrupt my beautiful personal photo. giggles. ' Ceh, I also got.' Nice one fiz, :D we, detest the intruders disturbing our photoshoot. Disturbed my photo 'one more time' ! dihao : I really can't stand the intruders! ^^
(Ning hm-hm-ing.)(Ling: nowadays the teenagers always misbehaved !)(dihao: giggles)
The Intruder in my photo again. This is what I best in ! Ey? Who's camera was that. Technical problem in the center. Forgive me people. Despite of my frequent irritating actions, I do love all of you, deep down from my heart. 8D