Frozen Heart .

2010-03-06T19:55:00.001-08:00

do you know that I waited?

All these while.

2009-11-12T06:29:00.001-08:00

. Argh. I don't know what already. :(

Fly, as far.

2009-09-15T06:09:00.000-07:00

Tuesday, Humid, Night.

Attachment's ending, nothing much interesting happened. Trying my best to figure out uncertainties.

Here, a long story, for you. Have fun. (:

""Don't go." She moaned from underneath the covers.

"No, I have to go. Remember, it's called work, it pays the bills."

He pulled himself to sit up in the bed with the sheets covering his naked body.

She pulled her arms around his chest.

Putting all her weight on his chest she pulled herself into a sitting position and started to nibble on his neck.

She tried to tempt him to take the day off.

As much as he wanted to take the day off and spend the morning making love to her he knew he had to go to work.

As much to his dismay he pulled a towel over his waist and headed for the bathroom.

Need some company?"

He heard her voice calling to him from the bed.

He knew that if she joined him he would be tempted even more to stay with her.

She didn't have to worry about getting up; she worked at night in the club.

Unlike her, he had to get up in the morning for work.

A little shower couldn't hurt and he wouldn't be seeing her until dinner.

But if she did join in he wouldn't be able to leave the apartment.

"I think I should do this wash alone."

He started his shower as she slipped into a sweet dream of what the night could bring to them.

It didn't really bother her that he wouldn't let her join him in the shower, or that he refused to take the day off.

She knew he did have to work and so did she.

Still, he said nothing to her, nothing at all about what the day was.

It was their 4-year anniversary and he had said nothing.

Maybe he was going to surprise her, but it wasn't like him to have surprises.

As much as her heart wished he would have something special for the evening, she knew he had probably forgotten.

Four years together and nothing really special, God knows she surprised him enough.

Nothing was different except how he would seduce her.

Oh, she loved that, but it wasn't enough.

Not to mention she wouldn't mind making a bigger commitment, but not that he was never going to ask her. The idea was too big and so was the decision for him.

It was the "forever" part that got to him.

Still, she was happy that he kept the relationship going.

Sometimes she feared that she loved him more than he loved her.

11am with bowl of frosted flakes and a Beatles CD playing "I'm So Tired" in the background she sits waiting for him to call her and talk for an hour.

It always surprised him how she always woke up before him on his birthday.

She had signs made and posted on the walls and even in the mirror.

She had already presents out and a coffee cake.

Every year he would wake up and there she would be sitting, with a cup of tea, awake at the table for him.

There were times he waited for her.

Some nights he would go to the club just to hear her sing but others he had something else planned.

He would wait for her at night.

They barely saw each other except at night or during the weekends.

That's why they both cherished the nights they spent together.

He really did love her. He knew she thought he didn't love her as much as she loved him, but it wasn't true. He wasn't good at showing that he loved her.

She showed it by leaving him little notices or calls and sometimes she would pick something up for him just because she wanted to.

He didn't know what he would do without her being there in the morning, without trying to get him sleep in with her.

She had told him that he was her smile and that without him she wouldn't have a reason to smile.

But he saw it differently, he couldn't stand to not see her smile, it drove him crazy.

He would walk to the ends of the earth to find a cure for her when she's depressed.

But now living with him she wasn't depressed as much.

He loved her smile and he couldn't stand it not being with her in the morning.

***** "He hasn't called or said anything?"

"Nothing, I don't know if I'm supposed to do something for him again or what." "Well did you get him something for your anniversary?" "Of course! Do you think I should remind him?" "I say wait, you never know what he could come up with." "It's not like him to have surprises." "I know but he might have something. Just don't tell him yet." "I've already decided what I'm doing tonight at the club. I'm leaving him a message that I want him to be there at the club. Then when I see him there I start singing our song." "That is so cute! Here, hold him for a second. My arms need a rest." She took the baby in her arms and held him carefully as she rocked him softly to sleep. "You know, we'd love to baby-sit. Just call us, if you can't reach me at home just call my cell phone. I don't go a lot of places, maybe to get groceries every now and then." "Thanks but I have to hold on to him right now. In a couple of months maybe but he needs to be with just his mommy now." "I can't believe you're a mother. I just never thought I'd be holding your kid before I was even married." "Well don't be too upset. You know we are 28, almost 30." "Oh God, I'm so excited." "I just need to rest."

While rocking the baby she started singing "Lullaby" by Billy Joel and soon mother and son were fast asleep.

She laid the baby carefully in his crib and pulled a blanket over the mommy.

She just sat down and watched them sleep.

They had been friends for God knows how long.

She remembered when they would break out into musical numbers in the middle of the street and laugh and pretend they could dance.

Now she had a baby with a loving husband and everything a woman wants at their age.

Still they couldn't go out the same way but they were older now and more mature.

She was still lonely.

She found herself going to visit her friends and their families while she was still dating.

Wanting a family so much she just sat there and waited for the mother and son to wake up thinking if she would ever be as lucky.

***** Hun,Please come to the club tonight. I'd like you to be there while I'm still working.Love

She probably wanted to celebrate while he had his own idea for celebrating the day. He knew well it was their 4-year anniversary.

They hadn't gotten married 4 years ago, still dating each other.

They hadn't met on 4 years ago; they knew each other for years.

No, 4 years ago he saw her at the club and bought her a drink after work.

It was their first real date 4 years ago.

Being old friends and not seeing each other in a while he was caught by her voice and he saw her smile.

That smile seemed to almost put him in a trance.

About 2 years later they decided to move in.

Part of it was because they wanted to move to a new level; also she needed a place to live.

Ever since they have been together and shared everything.

She even let him eat the last of the mashed potatoes sometimes.

Potatoes were her favorite and by letting him finished them off showed she loved him a lot. This made him feel special. Still he would leave her little snacks of pudding in the fridge. She also loved pudding. He felt he had to get her some even when she didn't ask him. Every day at his lunch break he would pick up a package of snack packs for her.

By the next day the six-pack would be gone.

Placing the snack packs in the refrigerator he decided to shower and change before he went over to the club. ***** As she sang she waited to see him.

She kept an eye out for him and it took him a while to get there.

But when she saw him she suddenly lit up and the song got brighter with more meaning.

Once the song was done she whispered over to the band about the plan she had told them weeks in advance. "This one goes out to my boyfriend of four years today, this is What A Wonderful World." As she sang she kept her eyes on him as he watched her with loving eyes. It was almost like the words were written for them. Sure it wasn't really a love song but it was their song and it showed how the world looked in her eyes when she was with him. Once the instrumental interlude came on she motioned him to get on the dance floor. She walked off the stage and they just started dancing. She loved to dance with him; it was the sweetest thing in the world to her. Nothing could've been better than to just dance with him. She whispered in his ear, "Happy Anniversary." He just kept on holding her as they moved around the dance floor. She didn't want to move but the instrumental part was almost finished. She pulled apart from him and finished the song up front. When it was done she was finished for the night. They would have dinner and then go to bed. She tried to get off the stage but he got up there with her and told her he had something to say. She just stood away from the mike as he talked into it.

"Usually I don't do these type of things, least of all in public. I have been lucky enough to be with this lovely woman for 4 years. As a matter of fact this was where we had our first date. For two years now we've had to share everything, even the bathroom. But as we all know sometimes just sharing an apartment, after time, isn't enough. We need more in life. We need to share more. So that's why I'm up here tonight in front of all you people to finally pay my lovely girl-friend back for putting up with me all these years."

As he said the last words he pulled a black velvet box out of his coat pocket. Her heart almost skipped a beat. He opened it up to reveal a diamond ring. As he held it out to her he said, "Will you marry me?" The words slipped out of his mouth almost too quickly, she could see he was nervous. But she knew now that it wasn't commitment that was scaring him, it was the fear of losing the relationship they had at the time. He was afraid she wouldn't want to stay by his side forever, so he left the question hidden. With her hands cupped over her mouth and water filled eyes she managed to say yes. It was the biggest surprise she had ever gotten. Once she said yes his face changed, it was calm again. When someone is in love sometimes you can see him or her sort of glowing and there's no way of hiding it. Well, now the two were glowing as they were in each other's embrace.

Moral of the story: There's crocodile @ Ubin !

p.s. you asked me don't, but how could I? It's tough and impossible !

Rise & Falls.

2009-09-07T06:16:00.000-07:00

Monday, 2200, Windy.

It has been days, since I last contacted my parents, younger brother.

It has been days, since I ask about my grandparents.

It has been days, since the last time I spend some quality time at home.

Yes. Definitely & for sure. It feels like years since the last time we met.

Maybe not for you, but yes, I feel that way.

"oh boy, why you like that? Is it worth it?

Yes, I have given my best shot."

Tunnel, darkness.

2009-09-06T06:09:00.000-07:00

It has been a long time folks. Been busy with life.

Mainly attachment, which eats up a huge part of my life.

Yes, back with all the rantings.

Recently, I slow down the pace of my life, paying attention to all the small details.

Afterall, realised that it's all the tiny details that matter.

I have been living a rush, fast-paced life.

It's time to be more, specific, and clear minded. Believe it or not, I know what I want.

Just that, how to execute, how to achieve.

Aw god. I don't know how to continue.

HAHA. Rusty english. But nevermind. As long as we don't give up, there's hope, there's a wayout.

[Hey same to you student!]

Anyway, shall continue tomorrow, when my mind is more, organised. Night world. (:

thanks for those who have been visiting this dusty place. Greatly appreciate it.

"Why do birds suddenly appear

Every time you are near?

Just like me, they long to be

Close to you.

Why do stars fall down from the sky

Every time you walk by?

Just like me, they long to be

Close to you."

Fate, decide for me. I'll leave it to you.

Uh.

2009-06-25T08:48:00.000-07:00

Transformers: Revenge Of The Fallen

Land Of The Lost

Ghosts Of girlfriend's past.

First time marathon till so hard.

HeavyHeavy Head And Ache.

But really enjoyable, so long did'nt really go out with them.

Crapherecrapthere everywhere crapcrap.

SAY WANT TO DIET. THEN STILL EAT.

But how to resist you tell me.

First Class Toilet.

More to come. Stay tuned ! (:

Hee?

2009-06-06T11:47:00.000-07:00

Gonna Flunk It. (:

Treasure you all the most, afterall. (:

2009-05-17T06:08:00.000-07:00

Throughout the days I had, you all guided me, worked along with me, and helped me, not only in terms of delegates, or rather, in my life too. I couldn't ask for anymore better team, than what I had. Looked through all the photos that we have taken through the whole year, I realised, I gained much more than I sacrificed. You all are the ones that standby me, though there were people who trying to bring us down, to be honest, without you all, there wouldn't by any success in any of the events. All the wonderful moments that we spent together, reminds me of the first time I set foot in Singapore, I was so helpless, and till now, I'm proud to say, to be able to be working hand in hand with u guys, actually gave me strength to be more persistent, and stay strong thoughout the year. From strangers, to friends, to a family that I can't bare to leave. Though we will be going onto different pathway of life soon, but I truly hope that, each of us will remains in each other's heart, at least for manymany years down the road. Hate to say this, it's time to move on, from this stage that gave me most warmth that I could ever ask for, to another stage of life. But I have to say that, I learnt alot. Those experiences that so precious, that can't possibly learn through daily lifes, and only with challenges.

For the little appreciation gift from nurul and me, hope that it will be the one that recall the tiny pieces of memories that we once had together, as a team, as a family. At least, it is the very least thing that we can do for you all. If I'm given another chance to choose again, I would say, definitely, these are the people, that I'm comfortable with, that are efficient enough, and they are the ones, and only ones, that I'm willing to work with, ever again. The chemistry in between, can never be exchange for anything else. If anyone ever ask me again, like what Mr rashid asked me, what is the greatest achievement so far as a chairman, without hesitation, I would say it's the team of wonderful people, that gave me the feeling of being part of the them, and the tight bond that I would never forget. Forgive me, if I have been rude or unreasonable at any point of time, I'm really not aware of it, and really sorry, great apologies for it k?

Lastly, I know I hardly say this, but, just let me say this once, just for the last time, I do treasure the nine of you, the birthday celebrations and outings we had, the silly laughters that we once had, I could only conclude that, I Love You All deep deep,and deeper, Nurul, Amy, Ling, Pris, Melisa, Ning, Abdullah, Abu & Khai (quoted from Ling! ). Just hope, our friendships will last through, even after we graduate, even after 20 years down the road. Will always remember the great moments, and do hope each and every of us, have a bright future ahead. The nine of you, will remain inside me, surely, for a long time. (:

Nine:
"kkkk, it's time to break free from the small-eyes's irritating voice, that haunted me for 1 whole year. Woo-Hoo ! (: "

2009-05-01T12:34:00.000-07:00

woots!

Labour day, stayed at home, couchpotato day + supper @ changi village (Jaguar siol).

Went out 12am, Winning Eleven at Josh's house.

Just got back.

Not bad, at least get in touch with friends which I seldom meet since we drifted apart.

HS life, so far so normal, nothing much.

Lose something, gain much things I guess.

Time to spend more time with people whom I neglected for the past year.

Afterall, just left with few months to go before PRCP.

Oh alibaba, just the thought of it, makes me shrink.

It's 3.39am now, sudden urge to blog, but yet nothing much to say. Haha.

Well, plan for the following weeks or even, months, dietdietdiet.

Which I failed to do so, as usual. (:

Have to stay away more from KFC. Urgh.

Time to sleep, time to get a haircut.

Yeahyeahyeah.

Lastly, hope the mexican swines stop having flu, fullstop. (:

For those that are sick currently, take good care of yourself !

lalala.

Total Failure.

2009-04-21T07:03:00.000-07:00

Great disappointment, for the past year.

Grateful for all the joy though, will remember it. (:

First Fly.

2009-03-28T10:35:00.001-07:00

Will be away for 2 weeks.

Mixed feeling,scared happy excited worried.

Good luck u peeps.

Till we meet again friends! (:

Hopefully, everything goes smoothly.

Changes.

2009-03-25T05:34:00.000-07:00

I don't know where to start off from.

Changes in life, emotions.

Just hard to describe.

Life's so short. Treasure it. Do whatever is left to be done.

When can I break free?

Going off to India, followed by FOC, and Year 3.

Hope to be able to commit more in life.

Changes please. More initiative in your life.

Take care all. (:

The Greatest.

2009-02-14T22:58:00.000-08:00

happy birthday, daddy.

Thankyou For Everything that u (gave) giving me.

Loves.

Who Sia.

2009-01-02T20:47:00.000-08:00

Year 2009

First Saturday, Windy & Sunny.

Aloha! Hm. It's saturday today, and 3rd day of 2009.

Been quite busy starting of the year, and yet, lots of thoughts running through my mind.

Tons of worries, what a way to start a brand new year.

Oh well, bring it on. (:

So. How'd I spent my New Year Eve?

quite simple actually. Resting at home due to some flu + mild fever + dizzyness.

But, still managed to went out chilled and countdown with the gang.

Well, I can only say, either I'm getting older and older, or the atmosphere is getting from bad to worse,

Counting down for a fresh year, seems to be more & more meaningless, to me at least, maybe cuz I don't really

wish to grow up I guess.Yeehaa.

New Year Eve: Steamboat @ home. Gang came over, and destroy every single thing in my house.

They're not much difference than small kids lah! THEY BROKE MY COUSIN'S SWORD AND I GOT SCOLDED FOR YOUR INFO.

I'm not going to host any event in my house again! haha. Never! All the plate-washing,Cleaning all the utensils used, can send me straight to hell man. And I starting to feel like a maid. Oh, and without pay, free labour.

After Steamboat/ Havoc, went to downtown East to countdown. Threetwoone, yay. And went to chill somewhere nearby. Played some daredevils games, and got high. lol.

Good luck In National Service bro. Some obscene daredevil actions. It's so-not-the-usual-me.

The Bonds.

Shagged.

To end this, I love u all lovely people, who brighten up my 2008. Ups And Downs, We will go through it together, as a team, beloveds. You know who u are. Taptap on your shoulder, yes u may. (:

And I'm sorry, if I have been harsh, or unreasonable, or even caused some unhappiness, I would be more than willing to apologise face to face. Don't hide it all in. Speak out. Promise I will correct my flaws. (:

my new year resolution? I want to be richer. haha. and get better grades. typical wishes.

Overall, '' To Be A Better Man- Robbie Williams. '' (:

OUT TO SHOP . 'what u want for bday kingkong?'

Life's Changing.

2008-12-30T08:21:00.000-08:00

Wedsneshday, MidNight, hot&humid.

Trying hard to pick up myself from being lazy, and abandon the days of being a couch potato 24/7, and trying hard not to get scolded by aunt, to keep the mattress the moment I opened my eyes in the morning. But, apparently, I only sleep when it's already morning? 5am to 6? guh. Will heed the advice, no doubt about it, have to!

Yesterday-yesterday, had a mass meeting. After that, hanged out with the beloveds, at town.

Caught up with each other, it feel like ages since we last met. Had twilight @ Cine, and it's the second time for some of us, aiyo, Edward-something's so hot, is the reason.

"My hair resembles his." poke my waist.

And, the usual updating each other, gossiping, dinner at Cahaya, searching for XL where obama feels inferior, u think I don't ah! haha. just hilarious with them around. All laughed at me somemore.

Here's the story:

Aunty @ FarEast Cahaya Restaurant came to me while we prepared to order our meals.

Aunty: No hot drinks ya boy.

Me: Teh Ais.

Aunty: No more hot drinks.

Me: Ya, I want Teh Ais.

Figure out what's wrong with it? If u didn't, we're the same species, and Big High-5 !

Oh, for a moment, I wondering why the heow there's no hot water in the kitchen of Cahaya, or they just simply lazy to make the drinks. =S Anyway, the food's not that, good.

Today, or rather, the day before, another outing with fy, xl and hz.

Browhaus[lols]-shopping around central area-Mission: Mphosis Vest [S]-Fish & Co.-

-Mission: Mphosis Vest[S] Part 2 - West Area- Tampines Ajisen.

It has been fun, of course, with friend that I seldom talk to in school, as in never really get a chance to, she's veryvery friendly by the way, and apologies to everyone if I'm being too quiet as I'm always out of topics to start a conversation.haha. Saw ""Useful"", with Lynn, @ citylink, and she's still as blur as ever. lols.

Food, food, food. okay, I declare that, It's my first time in Fish&Co, yeah I know, maybe, because I'm not local and pretty of a caveman? Pretty good excuse. Anyhoo, the food's not bad, baked salmon, shall try swordfish collar next time, as recommended, and hopefully seafood platter nextnext time ! And girls, stop eating salads and vegies, pamper yourself with great food and only think of what to do, IF you gain-ED weight. haha. It's quite torturing, to look at both of you being a vegetarians, while the two man-eaters in front, munching nonstop.

'Eat Before You Die, Just Do It, Life's Good'

'Eat olzo die, dun eat olzo die, might as well eat epily'

My Theory , that's why my bmi getting higher. Bahbahbah.

Ohya, fy being approach by a so-called, model-hunter, those from modelling company, hunting for potential models, on the street ! From head to toe, hm, ya, you got the potential lah, fingercrossed. haha. and stop the sudden ambush you self-proclaimed Ong Bak, The hulk [tear the shirt upon flexing muscles] , before I bash you up with wing-chun.

And, a big raa-raa, i couldn't really recognise you when you walk towards me. I immediately put my head down pretending I never see you, as i thought u're a stranger. As in seriously, though I'm a big fat liar, -.-, but from all the attentions u're getting, u're improving! keep it up felicia kong. (: [see, u're featured in my blog, so be honoured and happy about it, and glad to see you after all the improved changes, urm, maybe not so, due to the state of the aftermath disaster of the foreign object to you, 'The Heels'. uhhlala.

Now, shall get some sleep, and today's new year eve.

Enjoy yourself to the fullest, and let's welcome two-doubledonuts-nine together with a big smile on the face, you cool pricks ! (: Hope it would be a great and memorable day for you. Cheers.

Here's the overdue photos taken back home, urr, hometown :

Opposite my house, and it's really a jungle-liked mountain. I'm not lying.

Left: Mountain
Right: My home
Man, I missed the days years back, when we built our own hideouts up the mountain and spent great times there, and all the scoldings for being overstayed on the mountain, I missed everything, brothers.

This is it.

Shall end it with Fried kway teow. Shall not elaborate more.

Eh you, your saliva, ain't you drooling?

Responsibility.

2008-12-23T22:47:00.000-08:00

Wedsnesday, Rainy.

Back From Malaysia.

A fruitful trip. Enjoyed for the few days over there.

Meet Up with Old friends, and I meant, good, olden days buddies.

Updating each other of what you're doing, and plans for the future.

Glad that some of them are moving up, have a clearer idea of the next big step.

Food is still marvelous down there, and had some nutritious meals prepared by mum.

Photos will be up soon, as I can't get the bloody pictures up the net. Don't know why too.

Christmas eve, time to go out, and hope to have a unforgettable christmas eve, an unusual and memorable ones. Cheers. (:

A real, home sweet home.

2008-12-16T09:29:00.000-08:00

Wedsnesday, Midnight, Windy.

Going back in 5 hours time. Mixed feelings I would say.

Waited so long for this moment to come, to visit my family, yet, now feeling abit reluctant.

Well, let's see how it goes when I'm back there. Hope it will be a brand new chapter.

Done with quite, a lot to be exact, shoppings.

2 jeans, 1 tank top, and a pair of shoes.

As there's christmas sale all around !

cant stop cant stop.

Shopped for early new year clothes too, as part of the excuse for spending money.haha.

Attachment's over, it has been a few days.

Quite fruitful.

Yet will be missing the great time I had there with my friens and the staffs.

For those who having attachment, best wishes.

Christmas wish or CNY wish : change the bushy-hairstyle on my head. And cut down on number appeared on weighing scale. but i just cant stop eatingand eating.sleepsleepsleep.

recently, really wanted to find an understanding hairstylist, as in he must know the natural attribute of my hair(curly and messy).

Been to quite a few salons, and all failed.

They didn't realise that once I perspire like madman, my hair will totally go flat, and whatever style would be gone. Probably will rebond fringe, or dye it? who knows what will come. idea please.

People do change, from bad to good, viceversa.

People do change, from ugly to pretty and handsome.

People do change, from wearing bermudas all the time, to just a few attempts in wearing dresses?

anyway, a good change I would say. (:

stop and stare ~

I feel like this now!

Rabbit Without Ears. woah.

2008-12-07T07:29:00.000-08:00

Sunday, 11:45, Windy.

A day out with xiulai and mr.sawathikap.

Met aunty, and the daughter told her about the tarts and watch.

Cold-sweat. Seriously. Don't know how to react and reply.

Just silly smiles. haha.

Went for a movie, which xl is very excited about. Luckily not alone with mr.sawathikap,to zoo.

The outcome, mr.s getting excited and becomes a rabbit without brain, er, with extra uprised of hormone.

It was good, the movie. Silly yet entertaining. 'Bolt' next up hopefully.

mr.s keep complaining about I never ask him out. blardy hell.

Wong Kok hongkong cafe for dinner. Baked cheese seafood fried rice, and a glass of, urm, hongkong style milktea, in a bowl filled with ice. This should be the actual name in the menu if I'm the boss.

More realistic. Rather than those fancy names. That certainly gives false hope.haha.

On the train, mr.s gets excited again. shakes head lah.

On the journey home, talked with him about what to do after diploma.

Well, no idea yet.

Shall not think so much, and just do it.

step by step.

We Fish The Fakeshit. Subcrew. Brand new.

2008-12-03T08:39:00.000-08:00

Again and again

2008-11-30T04:41:00.000-08:00

Sunday, 8.44p.m, silent night.

Hm. Attachment going to start in few hours time.

Another long distance travel, for. 9 days I think.

Not really familiar with this term's skills. Nevertheless, will keep up with the pace.

Hope it will be a smooth one.

Mum went back. Everything back to normal.

Life? Full and packed. Hardly have any spare time for her.

Will make up for it, when I'm home. Promise. (:

Ohya, sakae with clique. Was a good one. Though the chawanmushi tasted like, fishsmell.

Well, enjoyed it, at least.

Saturday afternoon, spent with family, buffet at Intercontinental Hotel, Singapore.

It was great and filling. Wide variety of desserts, which I too busy eating,totally forgot to snap any pictures of them. and tons of yummy food.

Chinese, Thai Style, Nyonya, Western, you name it.

Met cousins over there. Which i hardly got a chance to meet them.haha.

Been busy with own stuff.

She's attached and same age as me somemore.

I'm a monk, but not bald and vegetarian. Mind you.hahaha.
hope to receive a significant other-half, for christmas. Wrapped in box or stuff into my socks.

Sunday, the usual anxiety comes back. I wasn't prepared at all. For tomorrow.
Go easy on me please, I hope? ohya, forgot to charge PDA.

what plant pineapple tree. lol.

ohshiesh. Remember something.

This is really my mummy.biological mummy.added me in msn.I laugh till peng!

ultra-belated birthday + early christmas gift for dumbass. thankyou for everything.coughcough.

SOLD.

Last Teen Of Mickey Meow.

2008-11-15T20:35:00.000-08:00

Sunday, 12.30pm, sunny day.

urm, nearly 2 weeks after birthday.

Been looking for spare time to update my blog.

So. after 'afew' days, here I am.

As you know( youknowyouknowlah), I'm not really good in expressing my feelings,

Er. This year's birthday, I realised that I do have a wider circle of friends,

that willing to plan & buy me presents,

willing to take note of what I liked, and willing to wrap them up for me.

All the suprises, laughters, although I behaved like a jerk normally, and tried to actsmart actsmart,

pretend to see through all the suprises, urm. HAHAHA.

But still, *palm on the left chest*, I really do appreciate whatever u all have done for me.

Eh. Those smaller font words always represent my true feeling okay. Erkhem.

To conclude it, thankyou for all the birthday and birtday cards, I love you all, and will remember every moment that we shared.

clapclapclap.

I Cried When I Taking This Photo.

Out of so many pictures, I bet this is what you wished to see right. (:

Next.

2008-10-30T10:13:00.001-07:00

smell it smell it.

Got it. yee-haa.

self-reflection.

2008-10-27T09:14:00.000-07:00

Monday. 12.19am.

Just came back from movie at marina square.

High School Musical.

[pris: psssttttt!]
full name? zac efron.hahaha.

just some random stuff, no worries, u're not weird or outcast if u don't understand.haha.

wellwellwell, time to dig out my blog deep down from the graveyard yo.

Been telling and motivating myself to blog, but everytime look at the blank sheet on the screeen, it turns me off.

Bah.

okayokayokay.what I did in the past few weeks.
school,delegates,project,movies,surfing net.

this pretty much sums it up.

first thing, feel kind of powerless in doing everything.
and not sure where should I start anything from.

where's the starting point.

everything is so messed up.

or because I'm lacked of the qualities I guess.

nevertheless, promise to give it my best shot.

lately, have been really obsessed into mesh caps.ho-ho.

In case you didn't know, or I kept my secret too well [ceh],
I once had a fetish in collecting cap, though I seldom wear them,
unless my hair being messed up. Just like few weeks ago.
toobad. no picture for it. It looks something like a person undergo chemotherapy.
quoted from some friends.haha.
now my hair's back yo.
well, next cap in the list. taa-daa.

I know I know.the colour is abit off, or rather, bright & light.

well, at least it adds up to my 'dope collection'.

Saturday went to 'what's good' store at the cathay,

and saw this.

Wanted to buy the blackgold colour 'dope', but it's just for display.

aww.

saw this colour instead. in term of colour combination, nth much to say.doink.

gave up the thought of getting this cap, as the colour's too loud for me.

but now,on second thought,why not buy it and keep it?

it's my long-lost hobby what.what to do.lol.

furthermore,the store having 30% everything! $89 original price..

minus off the disc.,would be just about $60+.

moreover, there's only 100 pieces worldwide.

A big 'why not'.

gonna get it soon. when I feel like it or I dream about it in the middle of the night.haha.

alrightos, enough sharing about my lil' secret.

and time for a big thankyou for the fossil.

truly appreciate it.

truly touched.

number1 number1.hahaha.

will keep the promise made. (:

and just wait for the lil' suprise.

so troublesome lah u.what also dont want. -.-'

lastly, most probably, hello india and posted to ttsh.

we can do it people, as long as we stay as a team. or rather, u're more than a team to me.

and please do correct me, if i made any silly mistake. Feel free & please do so.

haha.recently getting more&more emotional.

lack of sleep I guess.

nevertheless,don't give up and keep marching forward.

bye.

ouh, shall ends it off with this. Enjoy & laugh your ass off evil people. (:

[the parents smoked weed while naming him.poor guy.Ruined life]p/s: it's all about interpersonal communication skills.

two point one.

2008-10-12T02:19:00.000-07:00

Sunday, Hot and Humid.

Well, holiday's ending.

Did nothing much during holiday, mostly play, and play.

Obviously, with tons of sleep too.

Lots of outings.

Closer bonds with wonderful people around me.

Firstly, Chalet with the girls.

haha. Reminds me of all the crazy moments.

All picked one of the poker cards, smallest run out and stay in the rain for 10 seconds.

Thankyou for all the fun and laughters ! (:

Second, Chalet with fellow delegates.

Hm. Done with lots of chattings, and thoughts which I not sure how to describe here.

overall, a big thankyou for people who turned up for it ! and of course, those who spent effort to make it happened! you know who you are. (:

Thirdly, yijun is currently warded. Recover soon aye? We seriously miss you so much and your laughters.

A wonderful visit to yj house, night cycling to ECP, jurongeast swimming complex outing, and shoppings & movies, etc etc.

Lastly, Raya visiting with closeclose friends ! A huge terima kasih to abu, aifah and nurul. Not forgetting their extremely friendly families. hafiz: ''why your houses so nice?'' Giggles.haha.

ouh. and yishun birds are scarier than I thought.

p.s: I love and treasure all of you aye! BIGSMILE. (:

[peektures will be up once I got all of them! ]

it's beating.

2008-09-14T00:01:00.000-07:00

Sunday, peaceful yet annoying.

Attachment have been keeping my fingers off from everything.

Research research, and followed by research.

after everyday,back from cdc.

Long travel distance. And the having the feel of clinical instructor is always

behind my back, observing everysingle of my actions,

It's definitely not a good sign, or rather, the worst is coming.

Oh alibaba, just allow me go through it without much hassles will you? for

onemoreweek, puh-lease? fingerscrossed.

"call-bell = peep-peep"
how cute.
meeting with comm and bros have been fun! I mean it.
Tomorrow, 9am. shucks.

Bangkok's is currently under riots and ppl are protesting. How.
A discount of my weight during holiday. Something greater than GSS.
Justbehappyandkeepthatsmile, you.Always, please.
Shall spend more time with grandpa.
And lastly, I can't afford to fail. (:

Anxious.

2008-09-07T06:14:00.000-07:00

Sunday, moon & stars?

As usual, before any attachment, I would put up a new post.

Just to calm myself down I guess?

Don't ask me why am I having severe anxiety too.

Hate it. It would be cdc next.

Worrying about being late, long distance, dragging myself out of bed, scoldings and so on.

oh well, it's life, isn't it?
Face it with a big smiley face, as wide as Joker's.

:D:

huh? two-faced in the end.

Ha-ha.

Shouldn't have stayed at home today.

Should have run around outside.

Get exhausted and head to sleep straight away.

Enough complaining.

what have I done today.

A couch potato,

A 100 pound bigfatpig which has limited Range Of Motion

Shake off some fats,

and picked up photo editing skill as a hobby, well, a temporary pass-time-hobby.

lastly, deep thoughts.

qwuahqwuahqwuah.

anyhoo, all the best and good luck dihao, a big kiss on the forehead !

and below is the picture I spent 30mins doing. what to do. I'm new.

p.s: thankyou master maria for introducing it. :D

Learnt something meaningful and edited one for friend !

Time to sleep.

Don't miss me.

I know you will,people !

'just press publish post and stop talking nonsense.'

The 1st and there are more to comecomecome!

Falling Deeper Every Single Day.

2008-09-06T09:51:00.000-07:00

Sunday, Midnight. Windy.

crawl out from bed at 10am. Early though.

due to the appearance of Axel, baby nephew.

He shouted loudly, ''uncle! wake up,play with me.'' of course, his pronounciation was bad, but cute. ;)

p.s. the word ''uncle''. Am I that old? I would like to be matured though.haha! taught him

whenever he sees me, ''kor-kor'' should be the words. Not uncle. but, unfortunately, I failed.

He remained the same. unclehereunclethere.

So, babysitted him for about 5 hours before going out for shoppingshopping

Axel fed me this vegetarian noodles. woolala!

cause I told him, uncle old already,no strength to eat. :D smartrightsmartright.

Tadah ! this is Axel, for your information. Ain't he simply adorable.

He's smart. Indeed. And I'm the patient of the day, as he's the doctor. He actually

appointed the roles. Aww. cutecute x2.

Am I a joker or joker ? get it get it? haha. answeranswer.

So, finally, chosen 'The Flash' and bought it, instead of joker. Quite fitting and it's blue !

seriousy desperate for retail therapy. don't ask me why too. :)

and it's getting late now,resting soon, bye world. Adios.

Visual Hallucinations.

2008-09-05T06:02:00.000-07:00

1. Niang bought this for me to ensure I'm not dehydrated. '8 cups per day'

2. to increase the value of the vehicle ?

3. start fasting or exercise daily so that to avoid this. Reminder.

4. Somehow, I starting to miss all the crazy laughters.haha.

5. I dreamt about my toys yesterday night !

So there goes IMH. and hello CDC ! 'urgh'
And I'm not willing to go, rather, I refused?
Have to wake up at 4a.m. For the first time, I hate living in pasir ris.
Not bad. At least I get to accompany the bus driver throughout nearly 40 busstops.
Whoever he is, bus driver will be my best friend for 2 weeks.
And lastly, I missed playing poker cards with them in IMH.
''get the bond at IMH lah''
doink.

stomping hard.

2008-08-26T02:15:00.000-07:00

[a great contrast of the world]

Tuesday, rainy. Was slacking in my warm nest, checking the time every 5mins, make sure I won't be late for attachment. Miracle. I dragged my self up only at 6am, thinking that attachment starts at eight. ohwell, despite the fact that I'm freaking late, I still stoned happily, thinking that " Why don't I just call the ward and say that I will only go for afternoon shift? yay! yeeha. " straight after that, the little tiny angle with a halo, says that I should try my best to reach, and worst come to worst, don't bath luh. So, in the end, i didn't bath at all. Haha. ''eeeee''

Anyway, I still reached ward on time. And, the patients are simply cute. Skipped the details, and today finally a big step forward in knowing about the patients, when I decide to try to interact with them. Fear thrown down the drain. End of the day, I realised that, despite of their imperfections, they became more adorable, and innocent. As in pure and simple minded in a good way. Everything's straightforward for them. simple&beautiful. and questionmarkquestionmark. why do people tend to become truly a simple and nice person, only after some incidents happened on them. Maybe, it's the ugly side of human's behaviour and thoughts, that controlling the minds, affecting people's interactions with others. Lies being told, greedy, evil of the evil-est.

On the way back home, I was thinking about something that I observed in the ward. Although they might seem to be happy in the surface, but, they're actually feeling very helpless, isolated, and lonely. Through the calls they made to the outer world, through conversations with them, somehow, I could really feel them. Deep down, their loneliness. Being abandoned by the loved ones, begging them to bring them out, being trapped in a steel cage, I believe it will only worsen the condition. I never felt this much in any attachments I before. But, there's always a brighter world awaiting further ahead. When I walking towards the busstop, looked up, I saw an AhBeng-like guy, with cigarettes in his hand, walking towards me. I chose not to look at him, as he looks quite aggresive, with tattoos on his both arms. "Hello, staff, good afternoon." It was said by him, in a respectful manner. I was stunned at that moment. I'm sure he's a gangmember. After a few more steps, I look back, and he's heading towards the institution. Not on purpose, I smiled, unintentionally. He's the reason of this whole post. Flight of thoughts in my mind, further clarification of, how a person's behaviour changed so dramatically, only after some traumas or inevitable hellish accidents that happened on them. People do change to a better person, only by this kind of pathway? I won't hope so.

a squat that ruined it.

2008-08-24T01:30:00.000-07:00

Major events in my life for the past 2 weeks:

1. Exam Over. But, kind of screwed it.

2. Attachment coming. Damn it.

3. Accident in Sentosa. Rest In Peace, you were once my favorite. [_/\_]

'Outing with the beloveds and watching horror movie are full of laughters and excitements, of course, no forgetting [_/\_] ' "supersad."

Cute.

I'm there for you 24/7. haha.

Two extras who like to interrupt my beautiful personal photo. giggles. ' Ceh, I also got.' Nice one fiz, :D we, detest the intruders disturbing our photoshoot. Disturbed my photo 'one more time' ! dihao : I really can't stand the intruders! ^^
(Ning hm-hm-ing.)(Ling: nowadays the teenagers always misbehaved !)(dihao: giggles)
The Intruder in my photo again. This is what I best in ! Ey? Who's camera was that. Technical problem in the center. Forgive me people. Despite of my frequent irritating actions, I do love all of you, deep down from my heart. 8D

ex-am !

2008-08-06T03:46:00.000-07:00

Exam is just around the corner. turnleft turnright, ta-dah, u will reach the corner . pretty fast aye? haha. just a lame one. work hard people, and dihao too. running off to study ! =)

Unglam Weeks.

2008-08-06T02:41:00.000-07:00

Wedsnesday, HotLikeShit.

alo everyone. I'm back...? well, after around 1 week plus? guess so.haha. anyway, I guess i will just update my blog weekly? have been rather busy. this and that. everything seems to consume all my precious time. ohwell, it's life, isn't it? 8)

My past 2 weeks, involved in mainly school activities, runhererunthere, skipped quite alot of lesson. blablabla. Totally occupied by captain's ball, racial harmony (good response), HS Idol, Nurses Day(hell ya!), hell lots of presentations. Here, let the pictures do the talking. 'A picture = Thousands words' Enjoy.

Captain's Ball .

p.s focus on abu's face. slapslap.

Racial Harmony Day .

p.s Thank you everyone for wearing your costume !

Project Nutz .

Stay-Over Night (Full Moon Night, werewolves awaken). p.s: Beast too. =D

[thankyou, ning. For stealing pictures from you. haha.]

p.s: On that night, because i was really exhausted, so, i didn't really take much photos with them( the crazy werewolves ). I slept around 9pm on that day, 31st of July, 2008. I was the earliest to sleep, while they stayed up till 3am. So, not much of my photos. Don't really know what they did after i fell asleep. ya, should be correct, from what i remember. =D haha.

Back to you again.

2008-07-13T04:15:00.000-07:00

Baby Nephew From Australia.

Cutting Hair.

(Oh my. Fell asleep! )

( Cheeky Boy !)

(Daddy so bad. HAHA!)
(Milk Belly )

(Papa, Ah Gong, Uncle [ah gong no eye see both beside him.haha!)

Babysitting Day. (my big boss watching TV. Shh. )
( He stepped on my toe. Cheeky boy. :)
( Ooops.)

Gathering Day.

( Brother and Baby)

Sunday, windy. Hi there ! I know I know.. I feel guilty too. For ignoring my blog for so long worzxzxzxx. Anyway, at least, here I am now! =D

Hm.where should I start from....? School? ya.okay. SCHOOL. School have been rather busy with frequent meetings started to overwhelmed our timetable. Oh well, it's just the beginning. And realised sometimes, things actually turned out better while we are under stress? yes? yes? think so. Haha.

Come to think of it. maybe I should let the pictures do the talking part? Pardon me for that ppl! And i guarantee that pictures are more entertaining than me, typing in words. Photos that brighten up your day ! Enjoy.

D-Day.

2008-06-21T22:44:00.000-07:00

Sunday, rainy. Basically, I realised I have been neglecting/neglected my blog for, quite a long time i guess. Life has been rather busy recently. Travel here and there. So, to sum up my 2 weeks life, shall note down what i could remember. (:

The Happening (Movie )

''The Happening is a paranoid thriller about a teacher, Elliott Moore (Mark Wahlberg), who takes his family on the run, in an attempt to survive a natural global environmental crisis that presents a large-scale threat to humanity. This film portrays the earth as being a victim of mankind's doings, which causes a global backlash. An invisible neurotoxin is admitted into the air that causes people to become suicidal. ''

Well, overall, for me, it's a movie of some nice creepy moments -- but other moments, and more, of (presumably) unintended humor. Basically, It emphasize alot on the effects of global warming. For me, it is not a recommended movie, as most parts of the movie are like, runnning away, avoiding themselves from the harmful wind, which might carrying viruses, that cause people to commit suicide, unconciously. Well, some unintended humor, as Mark Wahlberg, the lead actor, tried to communicate with the plant, asking it the reason of the spread of virus (as plants are believed, are the ones that spreading the viruses around) , and only realising it was a plant that just made of plastic. lol. -.-'

Creepy moments, when a sudden shooting of shotgun, blast on kids forehead, using a stick-like thingy poke through the neck (ouch! ). Overall, nothing much "happening" here. (:

Trip Back To Malaysia

Been away from hometown, for around, 3 months i guess? Decided to visit my family out there. Took train there. I was supposed to give my mummy a call, so that she could fetch me from the train station. Unfortunately, I realised that i was out of coins( as in RM ) to make a call. Ohmy. I thought it will be okay though, as there would be mamak stalls around the train station. It was already 11pm ++. I walked to one of the stall. Wondering what to buy, cause i was not really that hungry, AND, the best thing is that, I only have 2 fifty dollars note with me! No smaller change, nothing. God. I stood there for quite long, deciding. The man at the counter keep staring at me, wondering what i want. At last, I walked to the counter, and picked up 2 candies from the bottle on top of the counter table. (I also dont know why am I that, dumb? at that moment ) HAHA. Well, as expected, the counter guy rejected me, telling me he dont have smaller change for me, as i only bought like, 50 cents item? So, as I was quite stubborn i guess, I walked off. lol. Continue my journey to find smaller change. walkwalkwalk. Almost reach home btw. Imagine how far i walked. haha. Found some mamak stall on the way, and, i learnt my lesson, just sit down and order 1 drink. Ahha. And i got some change to make a call! woots. unfortunately x2, all the public phones along the roadside are being badly vandalised! Alright, then i CONTINUE to walk! Around 12.30, father drove me home. And, it was because he was driving around, looking for me, as the train should arrived around 9pm, and it's delayed, till 11pm, and i was unable to give him a call, due to no coin. In the end, I walked so far for nothing. Just because of my ego i guess? lalala.

AndAnd, the food in malaysia was really a blast. Food, is part of the reason, i return to my hometown during holiday. Hehe. Fried kuay teow, a hawker which only starts business around 9pm and ends at 11pm, was quite a guy. He emphasis on quality, not quantity. Nowadays, hardly anyone, who did that. Prices are rising, shooting high up. Yet, salute to this guy, as i had a little conversation with him, which amazed me. (well, it's just my opinion? ) Deep-fried stingray with marvelous chilli sauce on it. Heavenly.

Luckily, I stayed there for just 3 days. If not, I would have gain more weight. (although I already GAINED some during this holiday, but, who cares, food is priority for me, at least. Hehe.

Attachment is starting tomorrow. As usual, the feeling of anxious, all over me. Furthermore, It's kids ! Will not be updating much during the following 2 weeks. Pardon me for that people. (: AND, I passed my NS3. woots. Take good care and enjoy your holiday/ attachment ppl! =]

2008-06-05T06:10:00.000-07:00

( ultraman look )

Thursday,rainy night. Common test over. Over is over. Stop thinking about it. lalala. What done cannot be undone. Just found out that, during my childhood, really had a few of major injuries on me. HAHA. It's up to you to find out what are they, provided you are curious enough. Nothing to talk about nowadays, as I'm not-that-sociable, everyday stay at home sleep and eat and play. Lazy is part of the reason too. blablabla.

A tribute. Rest In Peace.

2008-06-03T07:59:00.000-07:00

Every Token Of Love Counts.

2008-05-30T00:34:00.000-07:00

( 3 little botak. And which is me? )

Friday, windy. Life's a bitch past 2 weeks. Screwed up almost everything. Well, most of them. Shall not mention it anymore.

Common test is approaching in few days time. Not much study done. Gonna mug through weekends, and see how it goes. Holiday after that, mum will be coming on 2nd of June. Hope to touch up more with her. (=

Not much to blog though. Sorry for that,people. Or can i just make up with posting pictures? ^^ All the best for friends that will be having test. Bye.

every token of love counts. you will never know that. If time could travels backward, would you be the one? would u ever notice me?

Stress Building Up.

2008-05-16T19:10:00.000-07:00

Saturday. Past week is kind of, a fast pace week, with a blink of the eyes, there goes another week. Attachment is nearer, common test week 8, practical test week 7! quite a few of presentations week 6! ohmy. this time really have to pray hard for a smooth journey throughout.

Anyway, bought an ipod earphones, like finally. went round and round 'Challenger'. And, finally found, plus, the price wasn't cheap at all. Can buy 1 ipod shuffle 1GB already. oh well, it pays for better quality stuff.

Common test around the corner. Didn't touch much on the books. So, don't really know how to survive, sail smoothly through common test. Practical test's another big bang. Shall start now i guess. Although it's a litta bit late. -.-

BYE.

Family.

2008-05-11T06:00:00.000-07:00

Weekends, had outings with Aunt Mimi & beloved Axel. Below would be the storyline, and I decided, let da pictures speak it all yaw.

Saturday, Ferris Wheel.

Reach at the ticket counter of the Ferris Wheel. Heard about the significant structure of Singapore, but, in the past, I thought that, ''It's just those normal ferris wheel, just that alot bigger, well, might not worth for me to spend money on it.''

By looking at the damn blardy long queue at from beside the counter, to the top of the entrance of Ferris Wheel, totally turned me down. What in the world is that ! The ferris wheel really that mesmerizing? Would prefer to go back home, if only family wasn't there. Gah. In the end just queue for it. Luckily, aunt paid for it, and with baby Axel around, entertained me throughout the waiting period. Haha.

(From bottom while waiting)

Continue waiting.

When nearing the escalator, I thought the queue is coming to an end. But, I was very wrong. There's actually an escalator up, then have to wait again, it's just like a maze, a never ending one.

Now you know how bored we are.

Finally.

Don't Run Away

Actually, the ride is rather boring. The first 5 minutes, waiting for the cabin to elevate to the height, where u can see the scenes of singapore, and for the next 10mins, amazed by the scenery of Singapore when night time. Boredom, for the remaining 10 minutes. Personally, I felt that 30 minutes is a bit too long i guess. 20 minutes would be perfect.

1] boredboredbored. 2] Eating biscuits with Axel 3] End of journey

Sunday, Sentosa Cove
Another day out with Axel ! totally enjoyable. Firstly, lunch at Imperial Treasure. The hongkong cuisine is heavenly. Service tip-top, excellent scenery around. Especially the yachts around. I never expect such nice place exist in Singapore. Anyway, after lunch, swimming and sauna. The swimming pool is extraordinary. Later you will find out why. Even the restroom, is the best i ever seen. Simple yet marvelous decoration. Overall, peaceful place. How I wish could stay there longer. Had a great time there.

[This is the best photo ever. Censored. R21, dont comment about me anyway.]

[He is the cutest nephew. No one can ever replace that. =) ]

Pain Throughout.

2008-05-08T06:57:00.000-07:00

Thursday, a bloody long day. Exhausted. 4 hours of NSL. Can't afford to fall asleep as teacher is just in front of me. Damn. Body still ache like fcuk. Hardly go to gym as Tampines gym for me, now is around $2.50 ! omg. as i turned 18 yrs old. unlike last time, $1.50. Affordable. Unless, there is companion to go to gym, then it's different story. Simply because gym alone is just, gah, boring. Anyway, tons of projects waiting at the shelf to be finish. Yet, no mood to even start any of them. Oh well, better spend my weekend wisely. Nothing much, sleeping time.

Confused.

2008-05-06T09:08:00.000-07:00

Tuesday, too lazy to attend lessons, as there are only one tutorial and lecture. The word, 'only' was a mistake. haha. Spent time at home, arranging my stuffs, finished nsl quiz, playplayeateat, and of course, i did study a lil' bit ! sucha great achievement. 'ya right' -.- anyway ,tomorrow is a hellish-tutorial-all-day-long. That's why I adores Monday and Tuesday. The rest of the week simply irritates me. Well, it's 12.12am now. Better rest earlier, so that would be able to attend elaha lecture tomorrow, 8am. Gosh. adios.

why me, curious about it.

Bored-da-li-cious.

2008-05-04T06:21:00.000-07:00

Sunday, prefer to stay at home, rather than going out, as u people know, I'm rather broke ! haha. As in, it's alright too, for me to stay at home, rest play eat watch tv play again. Tried to study, took out books, and they still lying on the floor, wide-opened, andand I'm still watching the charity show on channel 8. Well-done dihao. o.o' watching Ha Lin singing, alot of quacking, and too-over-actions, but not much voice being projected. No offence though, oops. lol. anyway, it's entertaining afterall, seeing him performing till sooo higgghh. Latest hobby, which is reading other ppl's blog. haha. Like to peep on ppl's blog when they least expect that you would go and read it! as wenbing said, stalker. xD Tomorrow, gonna try to take shutter bus from Tampines, requested by fang yann, just hope that tomorrow he won't drools on me, as he told me the way he slept on the bus. -.-' looking forward for the upcoming week, hope it won't be that bad. smiles.

Friday Blues.

2008-05-02T05:22:00.000-07:00

Friday, not much to post about actually. Make up my mind to diet diet diet. Found out that i gained weight recently, although never really go weigh myself, but, i just can feel that i become fatterrrr. Have to shake off the spare tire. Andand, need to control spending money like nobody business. All the retail theraphy, shopping spree. Haha. It's tough though. Was wondering what to send back home for my mother for mother's day present. And, can't really think of what to buy. Buy those expensive present, she will scoldscoldscold. Cheap ones i not sure what to buy. Meaningful present..gah.I'm not good in it. So, shall throw the respondsbility to my brother, since i was the one who bought the present last year. I'm sure that i have to remind him again & again, as he is forgetful. -.-' Need to do more revision, as i really felt left behind, and also, until now, I can't even differentiate NS3 and NS4 well. oh wells, it's confusing anyway. true right? haha. ohya, dihaodihao, don't dota too much. It's not good for youuuu. ''Okay, shall Try. and i mean, try . (8

Hellish Night .

2008-04-25T21:34:00.001-07:00

Insufficient sleep and late night projects = high fever & bad sore throat. Yesterday on the way back home on MRT, felt something wrong with my body. something really wrong. but i just can't tell which part it is. reach home then rest on bed. Couldn't sleep much. Woke up after 1 hour. And, i felt giddy and weak. I was thinking, oh man. finally fell sick. and, it's not going to be just a slight fever. Measured temperature. 39.5. oh my. have to take a plenty of rest. slept through whole night and just woke up 12.30 the next day. Feel alot better now. Fever gone but sore throat stays. And, sorry people, for not able to make it to Sentosa ! :( was really sick ytd. feeling of being alone when you're sick is quite a scary experience. How i wish my mum was beside me, changing wet towels on my forehead, her hand to feel the heat on my neck, just like how she did when i was young.

mum,i miss u.

Unashamedly Brave .

2008-04-23T07:15:00.000-07:00

Today, woke up by alarm clock, received a message that ELAHA lesson was cancelled. -.- So, can't be bothered anymore. Just go back to lala-land, as last night, i was really exhausted waiting for project mates to send in the individual parts and do the compilation. Missed out 1 lecture and 1 tutorial class in the morning. Reached school at around 11.15. I was late then teacher was unhappy about it. Whatever luh.

HS delegates interview at 3pm. Went there and it's already started. Nurul they all sit in a row and looked so serious. Ahha. Joined them and starts to interviewwww. First few freshies are quite nervous, and suprisingly, normally those that spotted in FOC, well-known as 'loudspeakers', turned out be a nervous little kittens. Pretty interesting eh. Most of them got it in the end. And, tough questions are shoot directly to them. I was wondering, would i be able to answer them if it was me sitting down there, perspiring like hell? haha.i wonder how's the situation would be like. Can't imagine that. Cheers from the freshies, some are so-so, keep repeating the same cheer, and i think got 2 girls, year 1, I asked for a solid cheer, and they gave us REALLY loud cheer, which blast us off. one of them is from GLC i think.wow. outside also can hear so clearly. Overall, the interview session was fun. Everything was much more serious once Ms. Kylie appears. The atmosphere was really there. oh well, at least she's able to lead the interviewers to be more strict in choosing future delegates, and dig out their hidden qualities !

NSL test tomorrow, shall study abit then crash into bed. Projects and assignments spinning in my head right now. Bye everyone ! 8)
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How i wish u're not his.

2008-04-22T08:49:00.000-07:00

I simply love monday and tuesday. These two days timetable are the best. today, after tutorial, 3 and a half hours, sit down there stoned. stoned. stoned. shall skip that part. then finally hafiz they all came out from NSL. I was starving la. Then chiong to SIM food court to eat. On the way, keep playing with the Pap smear thingy. The duck-mouth-like tool. Suprisingly, alot of year 2 not really sure what was i playing with. Some said that it was for resuscitation (how smart ya) oh ya! Amir. Even open up his mouth, as we bluff him that it's for use during resuscitation so that the patient wont bite his own tongut, for tube insertion. Then, he believed! HAHA. then ayu stuff the tool into his mouth. Oh my, wonder how many people actually used that ! Hm.then after that, attended lecture. Watched the video about giving birth. On and off, 'eww..so disgusting !' heard during the show. quite hilarious though. no offence! truly, respect and salute to my dearest mummy ! didn't know that u undergo such a 'ewww eww ouch ouch ' procedure. Love u, mum! And, normally it lasts for at least 6 hours. Six hours of pushing, tearing of tissues. oh my.

Back home. Started doing ELAHA project without bathing. 'ewwww' ahha. whatever la. still smells nice i guess~ -.-'' still got time to dota for 1 full game somemore. hopeless me. haha. anyway, tomorrow is interview day for freshies who wish to join our family of delegates ! pinpointed quite alot of steady and on freshies. Hope u guys can make it through tomorrow. Just pray hard that the interviewers won't be like judges from 'America Idol ' or 'America got talents !' andand, today, we were discussing who to vote for our future HS presidents. Cracked alot of jokes man. Uh. eyes half-closed. So, shall update tomorrow again. Bye & nighty night world! =]

It's too late i guess.

2008-04-21T09:00:00.000-07:00

Suprisingly, woke up early today and managed to reach school early.attended NSL and almost half-dead.maybe these few days, keep gaming, projects, stay up late and stress. Hm. guess i will be able to get through this stage perhaps? went to watch Forbidden Kingdom with friends. Er,i would say that, it's not really a nice show. As in, ultimately, there are parts which are not really satisfying, example, Jet Li's broken english, simply frustrating if u ignored the subtitles. And, those fighting scenes are just oh-so-yawnnn. anyway, I'm glad that it's student price ! $6. but still, i personally think that, it's not really worth it .gah. Even during the climax, i actually fell asleep!

thenthen, back from movie. I went home alone as I'm really damn exhausted, for no reason also, from jurong point back to pasir ris by mrt. Suprisingly, it's a rather short journey, as I fell asleep! Luckily man. If not 2 hours of MRT ride might be torturing for me.

I'm currently having hard time finding suitable blogskin and figuring out about those chatbox stuffs. So, meanwhile, bare with me friends! Soon, it will be a more well-developed blog i promised ! okay, enough talking. time to sleep and nightie night everyone! =D

simply lazy !

2008-04-20T05:18:00.000-07:00

Today, was a boring day i guess.project and revising. dota-ing until 5am in the morning simply drains up all my energy. End up woke up at 3pm. such a well-packed weekend! [ya right] just realised that recently spent huge sum of money on a very 'useful' PDA(which i use it as mp3 ), retail theraphy, movies, eateat, playplay. first week of school was a disaster too. I personally felt that, the bond as a class is just not there. shall not evaluate further. Maybe, it's just the first week. Looking forward for tomorrow, beginning of a new week, and see how it goes. [actually not that excited for school, or rather, simply lazy. ] anyway, link me up guys, and i shall do so too, just inform me your URLfor ur blogs. Appreciate it !

the first.

2008-04-20T05:09:00.000-07:00

first post,i decided to continue writing,posting my life on my personal blog due to,too much things are happening nowadays.have to share it on my personal blog, spit out all the feelings,(of course, some may be too personal to share!) andddd, hope i won't abandon my blog again! pray hard for that. =]